When you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

When after all this time that you still owe
You're still, the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow


So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

It speaks volumes of what i'm feeling.......i'm begining to understand and feel the different ways of life. the only way is to improve and not be a air bomb. -outs-

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

I can't help feeling shitty at the situation i'm in. I want to improve but really do my words carry any weight? In this world we live in, ppl believe what they see. No proof and something nasty comes out of their mouths. That's the sad truth. There's alot of wants i want to do but can i?Will time allow me? Can i have the ability to turn back time so that i can do some changes. After today's match i really felt dam low and its time to do something about it if i were to carry out those changes. I really feel i can't promise anyone lest hurting them in the process. sigh. God please help me. I'm really at a loss.

Someone please take me away........

Saturday, May 26, 2007

got shot in the heart.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Haven been able to come home since monday or tuesday i can't remember due to me finishing work late in office. Now as i'm commissioned as an officer of the singapore armed forces, i find myself being more exposed to working life. Like what my senior says, don't take it as arrowing but more of an exposure. I'm actually taking it so positively that i kinda enjoy doing what i'm doing or supposed to do.haha. kinda rare when we are talking abt mindef and its organisation. Its just that its gets a lil irritating when ppl dun tell you what they need properly and then they tell you at the eleventh hour and gives you the excuse, " HUH? i didn't tell you meh? i tot i told you???" and then u'll just have to roll your eyes and get on with it. It's a fucked up organization la. So for those young men out there my advice don't sign unless you really have the passion for it. trust me. the world is not as sheltered as you think it is.

Anyhows here's to yikying and kaiwei, regardless of what happen, i would like you guys to not take it upon urself. We all need time and we are still learning the way in our life as we start to grow and mature and handle the outside world. Your efforts are appreciated and though we may not be showing it correctly but i assure you all we are all touched and appreciative.Changes are inevitable and its only a matter of time before we all reach the same levelling.

I wish you well.......................................

Saturday, May 19, 2007

lessons can always be learnt be it whereever you are and sometimes it can even come in the form of a visual context. I'm back from brunei and i must say this time up there i really had my experience. not only was i forced to handle heat injury cases, bee stings, harbouring on a dead log, and get bitten by the irritating sandflies and leeches i had an eye opener into how the world is unfolding and how we all react to it.

i've always wondered what i'll do if the unexpected happens? Will my instinct to love and protect kick in or will i learn it the hard way? Since my cadet days i've always found it a difficulty in getting myself to move and overcome that inertia in helping others when i'm in a physically exhausted mood and when my trainee said something to me on the climb up biang i just couldnt bring myself to face my reflection.

Me: why do u guys have the energy to move even though you are all physically exhausted?

Trainee: Well i guess its just the thought that even if its a lil for thing which u can do for him that makes him nearer to acheiving his goal will make you happy. Even if your help is rendered useless at least you know that you tried to do something.

We each have our own life journey and as it unfolds itself before us, we might get pleasantly surprised or we might even delve into the depths of depression but in the end all of these will just be a memory and the main focus would thus be on your present situation and how you make the best out of it. I would really love to see this batch of cadets commissioning with pride and receiving them when they throw their peak caps. To them i salute for their bravery and courage throughout their lives.

Saturday, May 12, 2007