Its been a rather long time since i last blogged. Partly due to the ever lasting mock exams i have to take. Its really taking a toll on me.A levels are really stressful and to add to that immense pressure, my prelims are in 2-4 weeks time!!!!!!! This is really disgusting u noe. hahahaha.

Currently battling my emotions and to keep them in check so that i can get focused for this stupid war. Argh!!! Is it a blessing to be a happy person and be oblivious to the darker side of the world or to be a lil bit of both? being too happy is not good either cos when u see a person who is close to you been sad u'll feel sad too leh. Then again if u choose to be on the darker side, u'll be miserable forever. That really really suck! so what do i choose leh? Happy or sad? or both? If its both, then is it really natural? I certainly dunno but right now ( at this stage of our lives) i feel its better to be happy rather than be sad and when we're sad? we can always turn to the ones that puts a smile on our face! =)So thanks.

To forget abt a bunch of them is sad but to know that u're drifting away from them and to feel uneasy when you're ard them makes it even worst. Maybe it just takes time for me to get used to it or for the feeling to fade away but then its still quite sad for things to turn out like this. Not blaming anyone though just me la.I have differing opinions abt them. hahahaha. (*u're on always on my mind*) hee.........STRESS!!!!!!

Thursday, August 18, 2005